Turn of Events
May. 4th, 2009 03:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
major_kerinaSo after writing a long and rant-ful post on my DeviantArt journal...I decided to cool off by cleaning the car...with the outside hope I'd find my memory card. I went out angry and bitter. But as I cleaned...I felt sad and regretful. As I worked my way over to the front of the car. I quietly said, "God...please help me...". And by God, I usually think of the smiling anime girl I have an image for. But I also have a sense of "Goddess" I quietly speak to when I feel emotion weights or personal discomfort or pain. I dunno if the two are distinguisable or how to really feel about them but it's something of a comfort and...well...I should tell you what happened next.
I looked on the area right next to my seat in the car. My USB memory stick was right there on top of a duet of dusty pens. It may well have been on my jacket and fallen between the crack and since I always sat on my seat to look around...I could never really see it before.
At that moment...I wryly looked up at the sky and said, "Of course you realize...this means nothing." I'm not a believer in deities really...but there are plenty of interesting things to think about that happen.
Still need to replace my PSP though...but this makes it a much better day. I feel like I can make it now...
I looked on the area right next to my seat in the car. My USB memory stick was right there on top of a duet of dusty pens. It may well have been on my jacket and fallen between the crack and since I always sat on my seat to look around...I could never really see it before.
At that moment...I wryly looked up at the sky and said, "Of course you realize...this means nothing." I'm not a believer in deities really...but there are plenty of interesting things to think about that happen.
Still need to replace my PSP though...but this makes it a much better day. I feel like I can make it now...
