major_kerina | Some women can be total jerks (Reply)

It's something I've tried to ignore a lot but it's a truth I have to admit. I'm a rare girl among most women who are hostile to the idea of men being soft or girlish because they are just as biased, hard-headed and insensitive about gender issues as I've encountered in some guys who I've brought it up to. Actually, since I've talked to more girls about it, I must say, it's easier to say it to a guy. I can't imagine how it would be with a guy as the instigator. Girls can be real traditionalists and biased on the issue of gender, sexuality and other interests.

Well, we all know lesbians especially can be very anti-TG even. Those were are subjugated wind up either as friends of those in pain or instigators of the same themselves. Human beings are weird like that. But yeah, a lot of "modern" women (as Ally McBeal teaches) show two sides...the tough girl and the traditional...weak innocent little flowers with brittle petals and those cunts are only hurting things for the rest of us. Two-faced things...like the girl who can talk about sexual shit worse than a sailor and yet if you bring up a sexually untraditional concept will cover her ears and go "eww ewww ewww" and close her mind off to any discussion. As I said, girls can be more closed-minded about gender than any guy. It particularly ticks me off that TGs are given such total grief about restrooms.

Granted I'd rather be completely alone in a restroom (I tend to fart a lot)...but I have weird ideas about what constitutes gender "regulations" I suppose. Fuck whoever says the 'regulations' should even exist when it comes to inter-sex and mental definitions of gender. It's bad enough government is trying to regulate and categorize existence and humanity...along with corporations selling and managing life itself. Simply put...women view anything out of line...or 'deviant' as a threat. It's as much, if not more strict an order about what you're supposed to be compared with what I see as the male counterpart. Fortunately, I had parents who were very lax about my developmental period or they just didn't care to program me a certain way with social structures or church-going. For that openness to allow me to define myself...I have thanks but mixed options...I often feel aimless but it's also liberating that I can rather not give a shit about 'order' while still having a strong humanistic sympathy towards others.

For all the mention of women being more empathic, a lot of them just won't let themselves wrap their heads around the fetishes of others and they have really twisted ones themselves which are supposed to be okay or accepted ("dangerous" stuff - violent, controlling, underage conditions, rape, etc. *heaves* And those are self-centered on their own body and its desirability while shunning all variations...so fucking close-minded but to selfish matters). Nor do they even bother trying to understand. There's a line by Ami, which while I didn't want to make Ami total into this sort of girl, but the way she kinda gets bored or just kinda flatly dismisses something...really sums up the reactions I've encountered when being a fly on the wall. I tend to do that a lot. I'm a real watcher of people...so much so that when I'm addressed, it's like someone is trying to break the fourth wall @_@....but I'm wandering...but women just don't understand the Y chromosome...and well...maybe they don't even understand their own chromosome. I don't purport to understand my own genes or the Y...but I think I can intuit things a little better than most. I have my own biases which I try to fight by not assigning gender issues to those who merely have unique, different distinctions. I'm trying.

I've found women tend to be distant and play 'hidden', especially online. And talking to them, there's a shit-load of stuff kept secret. There's a whole persona on the surface exhibited. And I can understand, but again, I went through something different. I decided to pose as a guy (which is also a persona but oh well) and that kinda opens things up to have a conversation be devoid of the inherent gender mores and roles and positioning and all that preening shit and whatnot. Again it applies that girls can be brutal to others online but then when 'caught' they retreat into their own little "oh I'm just a soft and sweet little thing" that really burns me more than anything else. Despite whatever things I've done. I've always tried to be honest to myself and genuine about my feelings and emotions. It's why there are some people I just can't talk to because it burns me to hide what I'm feeling right then.

Women are not perfect. Not even close. That's something that I know is stewing in the back of my mind as I compose Mecchen, which is full of women. They're not AS bad as some women in this world but the Mecchen girls have their various flaws. But it's a sad fact that many transgendered people dream of girls as their fellow sisters who are freed from the prejudice of their side...that's unfortunately only a dream. The girls here are just as nasty as the boys...usually more, I'd say. I find with guys, if you slight them, they'll get ticked with you, pay you back and sulk but in time they'll get over it if they are your friend. But girls, if you wrong them, have learned how to make things hurt and they treat it like an elephant would.

Yeah, some women really suck. I've found the most beautiful people are the nerdy sorts, inexperienced with social matters, they are the nicest people (and so smart!) you can meet and I've found so many online and met the occasional one by chance. These people are of both genders (though more often male). Those people are special to me. They are the most beautiful people I know and I treasure having met each one of them. Those people are the most treasured in my zappy feelings. My heart goes to them. I wish there were more people who tried with them to make them feel better.

Well, I don't really have a conclusion other than I fully renounce myself from that ugly segment of the female gender. I'd rather slap them around than have anything to do with them. There are just too freaking many of those types. You seem to meet every one of them. I'd like to sympathize for them but I just can't find it in myself. So, I've stopped bothering with them and their shallow interests and tried to open them up to other things. Sometimes you have to be the change you want to see in world on your own before you can move others to change. I dunno if I can...but I try my best.