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Tonight I felt really bad. Mostly from a hooking up of my inability to write how I wanted for a character in a story, to write them in a fluid and easy way. And wishing Ducky wore cuter avatars. I don't mind them too much but I do find myself paging down past his avatars or feeling uneasy like they don't fit him. Also there's feeling of wanting Ducky cute and feeling deeply that he's one of the hottest guys I've seen, in that Daniel Jackson sort of way. I'm ok with the Mana avatar he'll use soon and I guess ok with the hold his eye one but it doesn't feel like ducky should be. Also I feel comfortable around ducky and the recent avatars are more uneasy in an art sort of way. That's kinda it. I suppose but Ducky is so nice to listen to my "I hate those avatars" in the heat of the moment with a calm reaction. Now I don't feel near as strongly, I just think like they're not Duck. And they don't smell like duck. *sniffs the sweet aura of Duck*
Well Ducky made me smile afterward so it was ok and then Adam's link to images made me glad to see stuff I could use on myself in the forum. But the night was saved by a friend who said something out of the blue. This friend who has always stopped by even when I've been busy and has been so kind, said "I believe in you." Just spontaneously without me asking for help, without knowing I needed something like that, instead feeling I needed it. Then I thought back...had anyone said that to me before? I looked back and found a handful of times anyone had. Kimi twice and Sakura once. Both were nice and sweet but only one instance by Kimi came close to the feeling of how and when the aforementioned friend said it. It was like he knew that I needed that at that exact moment. It was incredibly touching to me. It may have not been the first time someone said it to me "I believe in you" but the way I felt it from him made it feel like the first time. I know others feel good thoughts for me and even my friend expressed this. And I appreciate every one of them. But being there at that moment and wondering what he could do to help me, and then like an inspiration he says that, I felt indescribably good. With just one short statement. Thats why I dedicate my post in adoration for my friend, Cowbell Man ^^ I was kinda pondering over whether to give his name or not but I want to acknowledge the wonderful boost he gave me. Especially on this evening. Thank you again so much Cowbell Man *bows*
Well Ducky made me smile afterward so it was ok and then Adam's link to images made me glad to see stuff I could use on myself in the forum. But the night was saved by a friend who said something out of the blue. This friend who has always stopped by even when I've been busy and has been so kind, said "I believe in you." Just spontaneously without me asking for help, without knowing I needed something like that, instead feeling I needed it. Then I thought back...had anyone said that to me before? I looked back and found a handful of times anyone had. Kimi twice and Sakura once. Both were nice and sweet but only one instance by Kimi came close to the feeling of how and when the aforementioned friend said it. It was like he knew that I needed that at that exact moment. It was incredibly touching to me. It may have not been the first time someone said it to me "I believe in you" but the way I felt it from him made it feel like the first time. I know others feel good thoughts for me and even my friend expressed this. And I appreciate every one of them. But being there at that moment and wondering what he could do to help me, and then like an inspiration he says that, I felt indescribably good. With just one short statement. Thats why I dedicate my post in adoration for my friend, Cowbell Man ^^ I was kinda pondering over whether to give his name or not but I want to acknowledge the wonderful boost he gave me. Especially on this evening. Thank you again so much Cowbell Man *bows*
